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Monday, April 20, 2009
Friday Did not went for NPAP training as i was not feeling well. i really feel like going. but many keep asking me to go home and rest if i want to take part in the actual parade. so i went home. Saturday went for NPAP training. my mood wasn't very good in the beginning because of some reason. after that i was told that i am being put as a reserved. i tried to hold back my tears,but i failed. i was sitting at the grandstand when they are having the final rehearsal. after that i join back the contingent to have our lunch i think. march back to lecture theatre change to full no.1,prize giving. march back to drills shed again to prepare for the actual. i am a RESERVED.CONFIRMED. i am standing away from the main contingent. i feel like crying AGAIN. i tried to hold back AGAIN. dont know why, my mind ask me to turn to the back. i turned,saw sir kok siang,zhen kang,ma'am si li,xiao ying. i immediately broke out into tears. i feel that i have disappoint them. i put in ALOT of effort in this parade.i swear. i am never absent from any of the 12 trainings except for the last one when mr richard asked me not to go. i never have this thought to try to skip or give up. i request for extra rifle training. i went for every extra rifle training. i treasure this chance in taking part in the 50th NPAP.i really did. i know not everyone can have this chance to wear a no.1 uniform. and it was WRSS NPCC first time getting a GOLD award in UOPA. but i just dont have the luck i should say. i really wish to be in the parade. i can only BLAME myself for not taking care of my health. especially when the parade is reaching. i really wish to run home that moment. i felt that i had failed. i'm very worried about whether will the CIs be angry with me, disappointed with my performance. i failed in teaching the sec2 junior the required rifle drills. both of them is also a reserved. after the parade,me and peiying went to put back our rifle and meet all the sirs and ma'am. after everything,went to watch movie with jingyi,kaiyi,sandra,junhao,jiun loong and eeleong. because junhao says dont waste a saturday night.hahas. halfway through the movie, sir koksiang sms-ed me. he asked me not to be sad any more. he also told me that the CIs are proud of me. they can see my effort and enthusiasm for NPCC. i am much more confront after hearing that. i know my effort have not go down the drain. No matter what,i still wish to say.. SORRY OCs,CIs,squadmates. I have disappoint all of you. I ♥ NPCC. |
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